Some times I feel bad because I wasn't knowledgeable about any form of mental disorder, and because of this ignorance I wasn't able to get him the help he was/is so desperately needs. As a family unit we have gone through an array of situations trying to be supportive of my son. His Brothers and Sisters have dealt with verbal abuse and on occasion physical abuse (The Boys) from their brother. There was one occasion that occurred where he refuse to sleep for over four days straight. He had a psychological breakdown due to sleep loss At that time I thought I had lost my son for good. Chronicling my son's process is therapeutic for me.